its been a while good buddy. how ya been? oh really? thats amazing! me to dude!

well now lets see since the last time i was on da posting anything.. life was getting bad, ryan and i were in some hard times, i had decided to come home to vermont, and we broke up and i ventured off on my own! i dont really blame him for not being happy. i loved him, even still, but i know i was driving him crazy. i was so happy to see him after work i just clung to tight. i had a lot of trouble finding a job and my mom became more of an alcoholic. i dont hate him, im not mad, im not holding a grudge... i do wonder how he is doing everyday though.
i just hope hes doing as well as i am. i still think about him everyday, but i am so freakinhappy that i am out of my parents house. i am free to come and go as i please. i can see who i want, do what i want. life is simply amazing! i work in a jewelry store making good money. i get to see my friends, and i even met some new ones! i dont have a car yet but i will soon. hopefuly in a few weeks!! yay!
i started off by getting my licence back, so sandra is super free. i borrow whoevers car whenever, so its way to much fun. no one minds cause i have the ability to fill their tanks whenever im out! what an amazing feeling that one is!
i feel like for the first time my life is on track. i do wonder what it would have been like if ryan and i had stayed here.. we would probably still be together but... i probably wouldnt have met jeff. he makes me to happy to describe. hes an amazing guy. has me laughing, tells me im pretty(i dont think so but he argues) he says i have beautiful eyes! i seriously melt.

so alas, life is amazing, and its exciting. i am happy. but if you see this i do still miss you.

-Sandra <3